1 year 'DREAMAVERSARY'
This day will always be one of the most special days of
my life.
It’s the day I made a definitive decision to listen to God’s promise.
There’s a famous quote that I’ve always
appreciated and it says
“When the world is loud, God will speak in a whisper”
In
the middle of a recession, a year after most of my closest friends had lost
their jobs and were still seeking full time employment, 7months left in an apartment least that
was already hard to pay, A year and 4 months left on a luxury car lease, with
everyone saying don’t quit- make em fire you so you can get unemployment, sue them, your boss is conspiring, go to the big boss.. etc. etc. etc… Not only did I quit but I also turned down a management
position with another brand.
I
did the one thing that made sense to NO ONE yet it appeared to be the only
decision for me. I left my job as a senior manager, with out another job; But,
with an unwavering FAITH.
I’ve
said this before but When God calls you, You have to move. I remember going
into the bathroom of my store and getting on my knees and just saying.. “ You are making me uncomfortable here for a reason, just tell
me what you want me to do, I’ll do anything for you” in the next few days I also asked everyone I
respected for advice. Yet in my spirit, I was just waiting on his confirmation.
A
year later and I’m celebrating my “DREAMAVERSARY” I completed the lease on my
apartment and God saw fit to give me an even better apartment for less money. I’m within 2months of
completing the lease on my car.
I have a commercial
agent, I’ll be SAG eligible within 2 weeks, I’ve starred in a play, flown to Las Vegas to shoot a
commercial, Updated my entire portfolio, I’m the face/body, of three websites etc. etc. and I’ve met some of the
most amazing people. God raised people up, and he has taken people
away, and he has been my strength on days of doubt. I am living my dreams and while
I always knew God had a purpose for my life, I didn’t know how it would come to
pass when life held so many expectations for me as well. I didn’t know the
formula to follow your dreams when you have responsibilities.
This
has been the most honest year of my life. I remember when it hurt to hear ‘you
don’t have a job?’ I mean, how could it not? I had worked every year from the
time I was 11years old up until last year.. I didn’t know how to be received
when I didn’t have what society says makes you a successful citizen.
I
don’t want to continue on and on but I want one thing to sit in your spirits
after reading this. Everyone has a different walk, There is no formula, There
is no wrong way or rite way, All 365 days have not been glorious but I have
never been more proud of Kiva. Ohhh and It’s a lonely road when you follow God.
But, what I know without a shadow of a doubt is, I don’t deserve the credit for
anything but finally listening to his promise. God deserves the glory and I
praise him with every part of me.
As
I begin year two, I can honestly say there is a proclivity to be hesitant but,
there is proof in the last year of my life. He’ll make my dreams all come true
when he knows I’m prepared to handle them and give him the praise. After all,
our gifts are gifts from God and it’s our job to offer those Gifts to the
world.. that’s how we honor him by living through what he has given us. It’s
not about me, it’s about the work he’s doing in and through me.
Thank
you for being apart of this journey and If I’ve been a horrible friend this
year please forgive me and know it’s because I’m finally being a better
daughter to God and I’m learning how to make everything that should fit, fit..
No
Sugar: I had managed to be successful at so many things and to effect and inspire people while losing the inspiration w/in myself.. but, God... It's amazing how letting go releases his power in your life.
Thanx for reading
"THE PROOF IS IN THE SACRIFICE"
NIKIVA DIONNE
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I love this and its right on time for me im going through a similar situation and ive always said there's not an exact blueprint to success, everyone's path will be different wow so Congrats on the milestone and continued success on your journey
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That means so much from you Carlos.. Thanx for being so supportive and always sharing your feedback.. As an artist you understand totally how important it is to us, especially on our 'off' days.. Thanx again and I'm so excited about your future, glad to be apart of your journey
ReplyDeleteHey girl. As always I enjoy every word of your thoughts. Your ending quote about sacrifice has been relevant in my journey as well. I've always thought sacrifice to be mandatory for success. My internal quote has changed a bit to "we must cry tears of loneliness at night to enjoy the rewards of discipline (sacrifice) in the morning". This can be a lonely road we walk but we both find comfort in the Lord. I'm always encouraged by your blog and look forward to a bigger year to ahead for you.
ReplyDeleteThanx for reading BJ and for always sharing your insight and support.
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